With a Heart Wide Open

I really debated on and off whether it was the best idea for us to bring a child into this world, our world.  We had just come through the hardest years of our marriage thus far, and then a surprise pregnancy rocked out world last Summer.  But something cracked open for me, going through the heartbreak of losing our little one.  Suddenly, I found my heart softening to the idea of motherhood and bringing new life into this world. I wasn’t scared by the idea of it any more.  I found myself thinking about the possibility of being a Mom.  And slow but sure, the desire blossomed.

This pregnancy has been a gift.  I have truly enjoyed every minute of carrying this precious little life.  I can hardly wait to meet her!  I’m sure she will be completely gorgeous with amazing curls, like her daddy!  I am so thankful for a body that is capable and knows what to do! I am praying for a wonderful birth experience, although, I’m sure it will be the hardest thing I’ve ever done.  And full of surprises, no doubt.  But I just have to believe that, with God’s strenght, I got this!

I look back at our gender reveal video often.  I really did want a girl so bad, as you can see!

Click HERE to watch the video!